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I feel like this post should start with the standard AA greeting: My name is Rachel and I am infertile. While both are true, there is more to me than that.
I am a private music teacher in voice and flute with a home studio by day and a Mary Kay Consultant by night. Or afternoon. Or whenever I'm not teaching. My husband and I just bought our first house and are enjoying the space with our two dogs, Laddie, a border collie mix; and Tessa, a maltipoo puppy mill mother/rescue.(Ha! Even she can reproduce!!!) DH, an IT consultant, and I have been married for 2 1/2 years, after knowing each other for 15 years. We met in 6th grade orchestra. I thought he was funny, he ignored me. Eventually I developed a crush which lasted through college, but it wasn't until I was in grad school and teaching full time at a private school that he took an interest and asked me out. Since we had grown up together and knew each other quite well, it wasn't long after the wedding that we decided to start trying to conceive.
Wow. Trying to conceive. That phrase used to make me excited, like Christmas might be coming. Now it just reminds me that it won't. Ugh.
Soooo...having discovered through Twitter that contrary to what I feel, I am not alone! There are other women like me, thinking and feeling the same way, all over the country! I've been looking for an emotional outlet for this frustration, as well as a chance to voice my thoughts on IF, so I've started this blog.
In the posts to come, I can promise you will see frustration, venting, hope, disappointment, etc. I'll share my experiences, the decisions that DH and I make, the emotions we go through. I am a Christian, so you will occasionally see a reference to God and church, but I promise not to make this a devotional or shove it down your throat. It's just a part of my life, so it will come up. Please don't be offended if it does.
There, now you know who I am, roughly. In the next post, when I have just a bit more time, I'll give you my fertility back story.
